Archive for the ‘The Crisis’ Category

Feb03

Socialism or Barbarism

Christmas Day Tragedy Reveals Necessity of Adequate Social Service Programs

Originally posted by DGP on Medium, January 5th, 2017

Tricia McCauley, a well known D.C. area stage performer, was attacked and murdered by a homeless, mentally ill man on Christmas day in our nation’s capital. The circumstances of her death were very tragic but not, as has been claimed, senseless or unforeseeable as we will explore later on.

As we work to make sure this never happens again, we must reject the simplistic and reductionist notion that the solution to crime is more police, more jails, and an expansion of an already deeply flawed and inequitable justice system.

Many of us know people like Tricia McCauley. Her outgoing personality endeared her to almost everyone she met. A theater colleague describes her:

While we in the theatre community initially knew her as a brilliant performer, often with her creative family at Washington Stage Guild, Tricia was also a teacher, a health coach, and an urban farmer. In her valedictorian speech at her herbal medicine graduate ceremony, she referred to herself as a “plant translator. My deepest joy is introducing plants to people.” Whether it was a recommendation of a detox juice recipe or a list of edible flowers, Tricia made it her personal mission to develop relationships among her friends — human ones and floral ones…

[Content warning: physical violence resulting in death, sexual assault.]

Tricia McCauley spent most of Christmas Day preparing food for an annual holiday party, and in the early evening she departed for the party with her signature dishes in tow. At some point along the way she was accosted by Adrian Duane Johnson, a 29 year old homeless man with a history of mental illness and arrests for petty thefts and misdemeanors. McCauley’s battered body was discovered several days later stuffed into the rear section of her Toyota Scion, her legs bound, her body exhibiting signs of blunt force and sexual trauma. She had been strangled. Johnson’s statements to law enforcement after being arrested were bizarre and unhinged. He claimed the 115 lbs, 5’4 McCauley, a woman traveling alone at night, offered him a ride. He also insisted they engaged in consensual sex after which she became “emotional” and hung herself in the car, but not before telling him that he could have all of her belongings.

Violence against women is epidemic in our society and across the world, and it was the main factor in this situation. Yet we must also acknowledge the equally important role policy makers have played in setting the stage for this particular chain of events and similar tragedies. Tricia McCauley was murdered in the capital city of the richest and most powerful nation in the history of the world, a country that prides itself on being the “land of opportunity,” — and yet many people living in the capital languish in poverty. In nearby towns and cities like Baltimore the situation is even more desperate. The affluent and the dispossessed exist side by side in almost Dickensian fashion with D.C. enduring a homelessness rate that is twice the national average.

No one likes poverty, no one likes seeing homeless people sleeping on the streets, and yet it seems that many are resigned to the status quo because they believe they will never be directly affected. Tricia McCauley was a victim of this status quo, and one way of honoring her memory is to work much harder towards ending the disparities that inevitably lead to social pathology.

Her facebook page reveals her to be someone who leaned strongly to the left end of the political spectrum. Several of her public posts show she was a strong believer in racial and economic justice, a fact that makes the circumstances of her death especially tragic. She was also conscious of her position as a white person living in the gentrifying majority Black Bloomingdale neighborhood of north-central Washington D.C.

Considering the type of person she was, we can be fairly sure she would not have wanted her tragic death to be used as an excuse for more intensive dismemberment and policing of Black communities, more jails, and more oppression.

In light of the fact that her attacker was homeless let us examine some statistics. A recent study concluded that providing shelter for those enduring homelessness is cheaper than leaving them to languish on the streets. According to the study, providing housing did more than save the city money:

The tenants also spent 84 percent fewer days in jail, with a 78 percent drop in arrests. The reduction is largely due to a decrease in crimes related to homelessness, such as trespassing, loitering, public urination, begging and public consumption of alcohol, according to Caroline Chambre, director of the Urban Ministry Center’s HousingWorks, the main force behind Moore Place.

The connection between stability and low crime can no longer be overlooked. According to Prison Legal News, affordable housing reduces crime and improves public safety:

Despite the strong correlation between increased spending on supportive housing and reduced correctional spending, “jurisdictions continue to spend more on corrections than on housing” by a wide margin. “An increase in spending on housing is associated with a decrease in violent crime at the national level and a decrease in incarceration rates at the state level,” according to JPI. “An increase in spending on housing and community development paired with a decrease in spending on corrections is associated with both lower crime rates and lower prison incarceration rates.”

As countries like Finland and India explore and prepare to implement basic income programs to ensure their citizens can meet essential needs, here in the U.S. we face the prospect of more draconian cuts to social services with one of the most right-wing Congressional and Presidential administrations in decades. For the most part the millionaires on Capitol Hill are insulated from the effects of their slash and burn policies; they live in gated communities with security men; they are chauffeured, provided with carefully crafted itineraries, insulated from the consequences of their cruelty. Unlike Tricia McCauley, the upper echelon decision makers are usually sheltered from all but the most carefully managed of interactions with the dispossessed and the downtrodden who, like the Morlocks in H. G. Well’s The Time Machine, occasionally emerge from the murky depths of their oppression.

One of the rare exceptions to the above mentioned dynamic occurred in 1981 when a young man suffering from schizophrenia shot newly elected president Ronald Reagan in an attempt to impress actress Jodi Foster. It was an extremely ironic turn of events considering Reagan’s track record of shutting down state services, institutions and programs for the mentally ill while governor of California. Dr. E. Fuller Torrey connects the dots between Reagan’s policies and on the ground events in his 2013 article ‘Ronald Reagan’s shameful legacy: Violence, the homeless, mental illness’:

California was the first state to witness not only an increase in homelessness associated with deinstitutionalization but also an increase in incarceration and episodes of violence. Of all the omens of deinstitutionalization’s failure on exhibit in 1970s California, the most frightening were homicides and other episodes of violence committed by mentally ill individuals who were not being treated.

– 1970: John Frazier, responding to the voice of God, killed a prominent surgeon and his wife, two young sons, and secretary. Frazier’s mother and wife had sought unsuccessfully to have him hospitalized.
– 1972: Herbert Mullin, responding to auditory hallucinations, killed 13 people over 3 months. He had been hospitalized three times but released without further treatment.
– 1973: Charles Soper killed his wife, three children, and himself 2 weeks after having been discharged from a state hospital.
– 1973: Edmund Kemper killed his mother and her friend and was charged with killing six others. Eight years earlier, he had killed his grandparents because “he tired of their company,” but at age 21 years had been released from the state hospital without further treatment.
– 1977: Edward Allaway, believing that people were trying to hurt him, killed seven people at Cal State Fullerton. Five years earlier, he had been hospitalized for paranoid schizophrenia but released without further treatment.

According to Dr. Torrey’s article (which includes excerpts from his book ‘American Psychosis: How the Federal Government Destroyed the Mental Illness Treatment System’), there is a direct chain of causation between Reagan’s decisions and the violence and mayhem that was later unleashed on society. He also notes that sentiments linking psychiatry to Communism likely influenced Reagan’s decisions both as governor and later as president.

Whether we’re considering homelessness, mental health treatment, or mitigating poverty, we must understand that the resources to solve these problems exist. The problem is with a system that will absolutely not allow a sustainable and equitable distribution of resources for the betterment of the entire community. Instead, many people are left to fend for themselves; many wallow in misery, madness and resentment.

The phrase “socialism or barbarism” made popular by Polish-German revolutionary socialist Rosa Luxemburg is more relevant today than ever before. She herself was also a victim of violence, shot in the head and dumped in a river by her political enemies. She wrote:

Friedrich Engels once said: “Bourgeois society stands at the crossroads, either transition to socialism or regression into barbarism.” . . . Until now, we have all probably read and repeated these words thoughtlessly, without suspecting their fearsome seriousness. . . . Today, we face the choice exactly as Friedrich Engels foresaw it a generation ago: either the triumph of imperialism and the collapse of all civilization as in ancient Rome, depopulation, desolation, degeneration — a great cemetery. Or the victory of socialism, that means the conscious active struggle of the international proletariat against imperialism and its method of war.

The war she speaks of is not only the war that imperialist countries wage against their victims overseas. The social war is in full effect and has been for quite some time, and many of us are losing. Some of the first victims of this war were the indigenous people of this continent and the enslaved Africans brought here in chains. Tricia McCauley is one of the latest casualties of this ongoing war, though an unintended one to be sure.

How many wonderful and talented people have we lost to the insanity of our current system? If the status quo continues there will be many more Tricia McCauley’s, many more Tamir Rice’s, many more Sandra Bland’s. As we see literal white supremacists taking up residence in the White House it bears asking what will it take for people to overthrow this system and demand something better.

If we learn to live side by side with oppression and inequality then what we’re saying is that we are OK with occasionally losing good people. The best way to honor Tricia McCauley’s memory is to work towards abolishing a cruel system that creates an endless cycle of perpetrators and victims. Revolution and socialism now!

                                    Tricia McCauley
Feb06

UN Experts ‘Extremely Concerned’ About the State of African Americans in the US

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The findings by the United Nations’ Working Group of Experts on People of African Descent covered a broad range of topics, including police brutality, mass incarceration and the school system.

The United Nations is once again tackling racism and the human rights of black people in America, detailing several concerns, from police brutality to mass incarceration to housing crises to the school-to-prison pipeline.

In a preliminary statement to the media published last week, the United Nations’ Working Group of Experts on People of African Descent listed its concerns over its findings of racial disparity in “almost all the human-development indicators such as life expectancy, income and wealth, level of education and even food security,” which the experts maintain “reflect the level of structural discrimination that creates de facto barriers for people of African descent to fully exercise their human rights.”

Full article here

We should keep in mind that the United Nations is a very conservative organization, and usually very hesitant to speak out against its paymaster, the United States. So the situation must be dire indeed.

Jul16

Stop Oil Trains!

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Audio from a July 9th community meeting at the Kingsessing Recreational Center on the dangers of oil trains. The main presentation was given by a member of the Delaware Riverkeeper Network.
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From the facebook event page:

Come learn how the 19143 area could be affected by an oil train disaster, and talk about what we can do to protect our community and others across the city. Every day, dangerous mile-long trains bring explosive oil through Kingsessing on their way to the refinery in South Philly. They release toxic pollution into the air, and there is a constant risk of accidents and explosions.

Come to the auditorium at Kingsessing Rec Center for a conversation about the dangers that these trains present and about ways to take action!

An event a part of the national Stop Oil Trains Week Of Action!

For any additional information please contact Jeremy R Griffin by email: dygriff95@yahoo.com

Could this happen here in Philly?

Jul15

In Solidarity With Gaza

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Commentary, informational links and video on the situation in Gaza.

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Jan15

The Global Rape Crisis

First things first, I would like to specifically address men and male bodied individuals with a message we don’t often hear addressed to us; it’s a fairly straightforward one and one that should be easy to understand: Don’t rape! Do. Not. Rape. Regardless of what you thought you saw in her eyes, regardless of what she may have said earlier, what she is wearing, how many drinks either of you had, how she may have seemed to be into it a moment before – if you find yourself facing any resistance at all then STOP. Just stop, regardless of how far along things have gone. If someone says “no,” and/or attempts to push you away and you still proceed – you are a rapist. If someone is unconscious and you have sex with them without their consent – you are a rapist. Of course if you’re reading this and you happen to be a unrepentant rapist this exhortation won’t stop you, but screw you, I’m making this appeal to those who still have a shred of human decency. More on this later.

The recent headline which sparked off the burning desire to write this commentary read: ‘6 Held In New India Gang Rape‘. Surely it must be a mistake, I thought. Perhaps it was some sort of typo, or maybe new details of the December 16th brutal rape-murder in New Delhi were accidentally being presented as new information; surely that must be what they meant! But no. On Friday, January 11th around 5pm, a young woman boarded a seemingly empty bus in the northern Indian state of Punjab. The driver and the conductor promised to take her directly to her village but she didn’t make it there that night. The young woman was kidnapped, taken against her will to a secluded area where five other men joined the driver and the conductor in raping her throughout the evening. The next morning when she went to the police for help she found them less than sympathetic. Senior superintendent of Police Ranjeet Singh later described the rape survivor as “a bit mentally weak” before proceeding to release her identity to the public even though releasing the identity of a rape survivor is a crime against Indian law.

India has been a recent flashpoint for the rape crisis, there’s no denying that. India of course has its own particular social issues contributing to the rape crisis there (including a wildly skewed gender imbalance thanks to widespread female infanticide), but so does every other country. Regardless of where the crisis manifests itself at any particular moment, the underlying factors are the same. We should constantly remind ourselves that we are facing a global disaster, a literal war against women, a war women are losing.

For those who are uncritical and gullible it’s easy to believe the mainstream media slant which tells us, subtly of course, that we should be thankful to live in a civilized society, a society so unlike those black and brown countries where women are constantly raped. Of course this is a farce. Closer to home here in the United Snakes we have seen our own fair share of rape related horror splashed across the headlines recently. The Steubenville, Ohio gang rape brought to light by the hacker group Anonymous once again reminded us of the falseness of the myth of the idyllic sports town filled with good-natured all Americana; little to no compassion was shown for the rape survivor whose comatose, drugged body was dragged across town from party to party and repeatedly raped by at least five young men. Many townspeople simply want the case to go away so they can get back to reaping the benefits of sports culture, and at least 10 adults were involved in the cover up of that terrible crime with people at the highest levels of local government involved.

This past fall in New York City a fifteen year old girl with a developmental disability (who was for some reason the only female in a classroom full of teenage boys) was pinned down underneath a school desk and forced to perform oral sex on several boys while another physically assaulted her whenever she tried to escape; her ten minute long ordeal mercifully ended before her attackers could complete their attempt to anally sodomize her. All of this took place while a teacher was in the classroom, presumably absorbed in playing on their smart phone, oblivious to the commotion which must have been nothing out of the ordinary for an underfunded inner city school. All across this nation it’s likely, no, certain, that untold numbers of women and girls are suffering in obscurity from similar traumas that go unreported.

The previously mentioned phrase, “war against women”, has sadly become somewhat of a cliché. The topic of rape and sexual assault is still somewhat of a taboo even though the rape and assault statistics should have us literally arming women for self defense until that distant day when men have been socialized to act more like human beings and less like depraved, entitled monsters. A recent infographic released by The Enliven Project reveals the shocking scope of the rape crisis, highlighting how the vast majority of rapes go unreported and the callous ineptitude of so called law enforcement. I’ve begun asking myself why these statistics have not propelled us all towards more drastic, militant action. Is it that people don’t care if their mothers, grandmothers, sisters, aunts and friends are being raped? Are people really content to simply sit around talking about the problem and writing about it on the internet? The dominant culture’s minimization of the rape crisis in the public consciousness certainly plays a role, but there also seems to be a sort of paralysis at work due to the (perceived) complexity of a problem which in many instances involves deeply intimate interpersonal relationships. It complicates matters when in the context of these relationships women find themselves being lulled into a false sense of security, tricked and influenced by pheromones, placated by affectionate words, and for women in the so called “first world” especially, ensnared in this myth that they are somehow safer than their “third world” counterparts. The psychological conditioning of women and female bodied people (which often begins in their infancy) certainly contributes to this false sense of security and facilitates their victimhood; all over the world women are groomed for predation by men who hate them yet who cannot live without them. Women are asked to fulfill the impossible fantasies and expectations of men and made to feel guilt when they cannot cope with men’s frustrating contradictions; in Western culture especially there is a long tradition of women being simultaneously put on a pedestal and torn down, desired and maligned, yearned for and spurned, romanticized and demonized.

Thanks to the patriarchal nature of our world and the ways in which these attitudes permeate all levels of society including the media, there is a huge disconnect between the facts of the current tragic situation and people’s behaviors. For instance, a recent report by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention revealed that rape is actually more common than smoking in the United States, yet when is the last time you saw an anti-rape PSA on television or during the previews before a Hollywood film? Where are the prominently displayed warnings about rape on sexually charged billboards and magazine covers? Unfortunately, the dangers facing women are being hidden from view via a vast conspiracy of deceit. The full magnitude of the truth is hidden, especially from so called “first world” women who are, by virtue of their proximity to centers of power, burdened with privilege relative to other women around the world. These privileges are indeed a double edged sword – they can make it difficult to see the bars of the beautifully gilded cage.

The plight of women continually reaffirms Aeschylus’ famous quote about truth being the first casualty of war. And yes, I reiterate again, it is a war women are facing; it is not a metaphorical one, but a literal one with many of the trappings of conventional battle including torture, murder, kidnapping and psychological warfare. War, after all, is essentially about subjugation, and the subjugation of women was the precursor to the subjugation of the earth and its natural forces. Unlike men, or in a fundamentally different way from men, most women and female bodied people are inextricably linked to natural forces. For a significant portion of their lives they experience a connection to these forces via bodily functions which mirror the lunar cycle; this rhythmic waxing and waning also reflects aspects of the natural forces of life itself: birth and death, growth and inevitable decay. Either consciously or unconsciously, patriarchs fear women and the natural forces they embody, forces they view as disturbing and ungovernable; therefore women must be controlled, they must be subdued, and their mysterious, wild, and primal mystique must at the end of the day be harnessed and civilized. Layla Abdel-Rahim, author, anthropologist and educator, writes:

At the basis of this Civilized worldview is the idea that those who exploit deserve their fortune which in itself justifies them even when there exists extensive documentation that their wealth – hereditary or “earned” – comes through the rape and pillaging of others (for example, what were the first “scandals” we heard of from Iraq and Afghanistan in our own century if not those of rape and humiliation of prisoners of war and the pillaging of museums whose artifacts surfaced on e-bay in Europe and America?).

Rape functions on both the symbolic and the real planes…anyone who seriously challenges [their] position or refuses to collaborate is exterminated.

If an orgasm achieved through consensual sex is a “little death”, then what does rape represent? It must of course represent a form of of complete obliteration which, as Layla pointed out, can be both symbolic and real. The physical and spiritual femicide initiated during the Middle Ages with the rise of capitalism (a fascinating topic explored at length in books like ‘Caliban and the Witch’) continues to the present day, albeit in a somewhat muted form in the “advanced” industrialized nations. Some would argue that the war against women actually began many centuries before the Middle Ages with the rise of civilization and domestication, but for now let’s focus on when the proverbial shit really hit the fan during the time when women began to be routinely burned alive and otherwise tortured at the hands of Church and State. Despite some gains in the women’s rights movement since then, the same old patriarchal structures remain pretty much intact with women like Hillary Clinton managing to break through the glass ceiling only to find themselves in the position of henchmen (or henchwomen?) for empire and the same old familiar repressive forces.

Unfortunately, the women’s rights movement has had little impact on the lives of women living in places like the Democratic Republic of Congo, Saudi Arabia and Papua New Guinea. For those without substantial access to privilege the situation is almost as grim as it was centuries ago with many women around the world treated little better than livestock; sex trafficking is a bigger problem today than ever before thanks to globalization, women are routinely killed by their husbands and partners in state and religious sanctioned murders, and many still have no control over their reproductive processes thanks to the replacement of traditional ways of being with patriarchal religions and bureaucracies. The transformation of the entire global system is one which still relegates most women to the status of property while giving a relatively small percentage the illusion of freedom under the guise of purchasing power. Despite their suffrage, women in the “first world” work for lower wages, are still subject to extremely high levels of sexual assault, and are still, for the most part, valued by the dominant society mainly in relation to their eye-pleasing abilities and reproductive power. The self image and self esteem of women is under constant assault as their objectification reaches new, terrifying heights thanks to technology and the ready availability of all sorts of twisted pornography. When we get down to the nitty gritty we can see that not much has changed for the majority of women in this world, and in fact, women are today facing new, unprecedented dangers and threats to their well being.

The outlook is indeed grim, and until the rotten structures of this malignant, patriarchal system collapse under the weight of their own folly there is not much we can do on a global level. However, there are some concrete steps we can take to minimize the damage being done. First, I urge men to educate themselves. Try and find a venue to hear the stories of rape survivors. Make this issue real in your mind; don’t let it be a mere abstraction. Listen to what women and female bodied people have to say about rape and take them seriously. Try, if you can, to put yourself in their shoes. For those of us in radical communities, well, we really have no excuse for tolerating or minimizing the seriousness of rape, and this is why the continuing reports of rape in our communities is so shameful. We’re supposed to ‘get it’, we’re meant to be on the cutting edge of social justice and the movement towards building a new, better society. Rape and the added insult to injury of rape denial and slut shaming in radical communities not only destroys lives, they delegitimize all the hard work so many of us have done. A moment of pleasure isn’t worth destroying our communities. Please, guys, let’s get our shit together.

The last word goes to rape survivors. If this isn’t a war zone, please tell me what is.

From the Democratic Republic of Congo:

“My husband was on a trip to Bukavu when some Interahamwe broke into the house where I was staying with my sister-in-law at around 9 pm. It was in December 2006. They came with flashlights. I had my baby in my arms. They pulled it away from me and threw it aside. I was alone in the house. They left the kids behind, and they stayed with a neighbor. It was a blessing that they did not rape my daughters—they were so young and small, it would have been the worst tragedy for me. They pulled me and tied my arms behind my back with a rope together with my sister-in-law. They dragged us out and brought us to the home of another family where they collected other people. They also took my brother with us. Soon there were five of us. On the way they shot one elderly woman because she could not walk fast enough.

”When we got to the bush, they pulled me down to rape me in front of my brother. They gave him the flashlight to hold. As he hid his face in shame, they struck him with a gun and pulled him away to kill him.

“When they were about to kill me, one of them said I resembled his sister and that I would become his wife instead. They killed another woman. We were beaten many times…

My sister-in-law was killed during a dispute between two men who wanted to have her as a wife. They decided to solve the problem by killing her.
“Another woman was impregnated. She tried to abort the baby, but she bled too much and died due to lack of access to medical treatment. I remained alone with my sister. I was also pregnant with this baby, Luck, whom I delivered in October 2007. I spent three months and a half with these people as a sex slave.”

From Saudi Arabia:

“One of the men brought a knife to my throat. They told me not to speak. They pushed us to the back of the car and started driving. We drove a lot, but I didn’t see anything since my head was forced down.”

“They took us to an area … with lots of palm trees. No one was there. If you kill someone there, no one would know about it. They took out the man with me, and I stayed in the car. I was so afraid. They forced me out of the car. They pushed me really hard … took me to a dark place. Then two men came in. They said, ‘What are you going to do? Take off your abaya.’ They forced my clothes off. The first man with the knife raped me. I was destroyed. If I tried to escape, I don’t even know where I would go. I tried to force them off but I couldn’t. [Another] man … came in and did the same thing to me. I didn’t even feel anything after that.

“I spent two hours begging them to take me home. I told them that it was late and that my family would be asking about me. Then I saw a third man come into the room. There was a lot of violence. After the third man came in, a fourth came. He slapped me and tried to choke me.

“The fifth and sixth ones were the most abusive. After the seventh one, I couldn’t feel my body anymore. I didn’t know what to do. Then a very fat man came on top of me and I could no longer breathe.

“Then all seven came back and raped me again. Then they took me home. … When I got out of the car, I couldn’t even walk. I rang the doorbell and my mother opened the door. She said you look tired.’ I didn’t eat for one week after that, just water. I didn’t tell anyone. I went to the hospital the next day.”

From tumblr:

It may sound strange but I don’t know when my father started abusing me, exactly. The first incident I can distinctly remember I was eleven, and had just brought my first ever bras, ready for starting High School. He locked himself in my bedroom with me when I was getting ready for bed and groped me, claiming it was to see how grown up I was and check if I needed a bra or not. Then he shoved his tongue in my mouth and told me he loved me. I have memories from before that though. Times he made me sit on his lap for ‘special’ cuddles, half remembered things from when I was very very young and still in nappies, when he would bathe or change me when I visited him. My parents were divorced, so I only saw him some weekends. Which I am so thankful for as I know things would have been worse if I had lived with him full time.
Whenever it started, it went on for years. I repressed it by dissociating to such a degree that except when it was happening I somehow ‘forgot’ about it. I knew it had happened and would happen again but somehow I just managed not to think about it. I even managed to convince myself I had a good relationship with my father because when he wasn’t abusing me he was so nice and caring. Yet I hated being alone with him and would become physically sick when I had to visit him at his house. I even had a stress induced seizure once when I was visiting.

All through my teens I suffered with bulimia, self injury, depression, anxiety and suicide attempts. Yet I couldn’t make the connection between this and what was being done to me. Finally, when I was 18 and went to uni I acknowledged to myself what had been happening all these years and was able to make the decision not to see him ever again, which I never have. However I also never reported him and I have always regretted that since. Especially as he now lives in another country and has another daughter. I will never meet her but I just know he is doing to her what he did to me, making her do the things he made me do.

I just have to remind myself that it is him who is at fault, who is responsible for what he does and not me. I couldn’t tell at the time, because my mind refused to let me remember/confront what was happening to me. Then it took me years to feel able to speak out to anybody – and when I did it was not a good experience. My doctor told me to get over it and when I finally went to the police they said there was no evidence so they couldn’t do anything.
Even so, I still feel guilty as I am sure that he is still abusing girls – my unknown half sister amongst them.

Sep26

An Industrial Civilization Catch-22

A very personal anecdote highlights the reluctant symbiotic relationship many of us have with industrial civilization. We hate many if not most aspects of it, but can we really live without it? Ironically, industrial problems often require industrial solutions…

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Sep06

Broken Rainbow

Watch this movie. Watch it now or as soon as you can. When it’s over you will be in shock, I promise you. This film shows quite simply and without exaggeration the logical end results of colonization, industrial capitalism, and most painfully, the results of our own ignorance and apathy.

The struggle shown in this film is far from over. To find out how you can stand in solidarity, visit the Black Mesa Indigenous Support website for more information.